My No Sleep Random Writing Fest.It's just me and my jottings.
For when something comes along.
Which means it's more for me than anyone
and you probably couldn't understand anyway.
February 14th:
My 20th hour [5:30-6:30]
There's nothing here. Empty. Tired. Blah.
Getting offline before my minds completely fried.
Made it threw the night!
Tomarrow night will be a nightmare.
5:44am
I'm riding on empty
There's nothing really here
Just the passing breathe
That whisphers in your ear.
Nothings ever finished.
There's nothing thats complete.
And I guess thats how life is.
Unfinished and empty.
My 19th hour [4:30-5:30]
Time is going faster thanks to yahoo.
4:34am
Tell me a secret,
Spin me a lie
Tell me anything
That'll help me survive.
4:49 am:
I've been here before, I know it
You've been here too and it shows in
your eyes say we'll leave here together
and this place will see us never
again you leave through the exit
the door you snuck in
and it's hurting to see
that you're just as lost as me
what can I say that hasn't been said
before you never used to pretend
you're allright, doing just fine
another word, another lie
awake every night, thinking
life should be more than
this was your final wish
blow the audience a kiss
lets put an end
to the longing ahead
and leave ourselves tonight.
5:00 am
I have so many words.
But I'm too tired to speak.
I want to help him
But I'm feeling to weak.
I need to laugh more
But nothing seems funny.
I try to smile
but life's just to crummy.
My 18th hour [3:30-4:30]
3:35 am
Midnight silence, time goes by us.
Nothing moves and nothing changes.
Everything stays in its place.
Waiting for this moment to pass
All the ghosts freeze in their tracks.
And we hold our breathe.
Just a moment more.
3:40 am
Love me
Love me
Love me
No
Forget it
I'm asking to much
3:49 am
Flowers dying next to my bed
A fire's burning in my head
And everythings to smokey to make sense at all
And the petals keep on falling
And create a complete longing
For something fresh and new
For something beautiful.
3:56 am
It's pointless
You know this.
Stop with all the lies.
4:03 am
Memories fade like the cut marks.
But they don't disappear.
Nothing leaves for good.
No one leaves for good.
Unless you want them to stay.
4:11 am
Stay or go.
Don't stand in the door.
I know where you're heading.
Goodbye.
My 17th hour [2:30-3:30]
2:43 am
I feel down a well today
There was no way to escape
I drowned to death
Before they realized where I went.
I drowned to death.
2:57 am
If it wasn't snowing so much
it would be easier to see outside
I'm not really talking about the snow.
You know that, don't you?
3:02 am
You're fighting yourself.
You're the only person here.
Exception for one.
I always was invisible.
You have a knife in hand.
Guilty mind and empty heart.
And you'll have to bury your own corpse
Or stay there and rot.
I don't care anymore.
Carve yourself to pieces.
Shhh, here's a secret
I'll always love you.
3:10 am
Stay up late talking
Too friends soon forgotten
And sleep will make nightmares
Of my thoughts.
3:19 am
Every second
Takes eternity.
This night
will never
reach sunset. |
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